Monday, November 10
Tonight I Saw Light
So the fact that I changed the layout on here may or may not mean that I will be blogging more often. I want to. But. I know me and I know it probs won't happen. But maybe it will.
So this morning I wasn't sure if today was going to be a good day or not. I was late to church because I couldn't decide what to wear: cute purple dress? or grandma vest? I'll go with the vest. And then I couldn't find my Shafer card. And then no one saved me a seat at church. But, that's ok because I got to sit next to Abi and I haven't seen her in a while. Oh, also, during the time when everyone is supposed to fellowship with the people around them and we say hi to people we don't know, I turned around and said hi to the people behind me and they didn't really introduce themselves or try to start conversation with me after I introduced myself, so I basically spent a grueling 30 seconds staring/waving/nodding at them for no reason except to make myself look like a complete moron. Ahh I thought people at church were supposed to be friendly.
On the other hand, tonight was incredible. I spent all evening preparing for worship tonight.. getting songs together, worshiping with the LORD, praying, and a little stressing. I remember being upstairs at David's house talking with him, Rob, and Alana about how the prayer meeting was going to go and just hearing a lot of chaos downstairs and what seemed like an army of people. I felt really overwhelmed and lost a lot of my desire to lead worship. But God always has my back. And oh, Holy Spirit took over. And we sang, and they danced, and He healed, and I heard the angels, and I broke my first guitar pick in the midst of all that.
It was a great night. I got to spend some alone time with Michelle which was nice because that rarely happens anymore. Once a week if we are lucky and I could tell that the enemy was attacking our time, but we didn't let him have it ;] I love her. A lot. She can be in my wedding [haha].
I know this week is going to be amazing. I pray that tonight was just a glimpse of the week ahead and preparation for the battlefield. I pray that He will use me to display His Kingdom on earth. God use me! I am ready and willing!